Sunday, July 20, 2014

Randy thought Matronista was a silly name.  I don't think he understood my vision.  The term "fashionista" has been batted about in recent years.  I didn't want to portray myself as that because that term means to me someone who is just fabulous ALL the frickin' time.  I simply am not fabulous all the time.
So I wanted a name that matched how I am feeling and Matron seemed to fit and the "ista" part just followed (and made the Matron part not seem to serious).

I have felt bad about myself for more years than I care to count. Just about all of my adult life.  Then something changed a year or so ago.  I came out of the fog and began to learn that I too was entitled to have fun, experiment with fashion, nails, makeup, etc.

I no longer felt like a monster and decided painting unicorns on my nails makes me very, very, very happy.  I want to encourage anyone who might know the feelings I had to join me and we will paint unicorns, flowers, butterflies, hearts or anything else we want to in our lives today!

2 comments:

  1. I have been trying to learn to love myself the way I am recently too, and believe that I deserve to look nice even though I'm fat. I'm not quite there yet, but I am doing better. I'm glad you are enjoying life more these days.

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  2. I understand Angel. I am afraid to make videos because I feel like I am too fat. But, I may try it and just ask Randy to edit for me. You know I went through a rough patch and lost about 10 years of my life. I am back now and want to share the things that make me feel good about myself.

    The thing about the nail polish is it really makes me feel better. It is inexpensive and I can play with all the colors and techniques. The time just flies. Also, when I feel down or a customer is giving me a rough time, I love to look down and see my fingernails looking all colorful and glittery. It is a way of saying to myself that I got it going on. Sounds silly doesn't it? But when I see that glitter and flowers, it is just simply a way of telling myself I am good enough and I deserve to feel pretty like everyone else.

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